Ok, ok... so about 2 months ago (after the devasting 2 day referral month) I had a serious case of the blues! I went into denial... there is no adoption, no logged in dates, no waiting etc (I'm sure you get the picture).
Here we are 2 months later, and I think I've overcome my mood. I read Donna's post, and yes... I did do some quick calculations in my head. I caught myself out - "What are you doing?!" I asked myself. "Don't do that! You'll just be devasted (again!) when Christmas rolls round, and you still don't have a referral". Scary, when you actually catch yourself, having conversations in your head... with yourself!!! Although the content of my conversation wasn't all that positive, it did prove to me, that I do still hold hope. Hope that, I thought, had gone forever. Disappeared with the 2 days worth of referrals.
I know in that 2 days, though, hundreds of people, had their dreams come true. The piece of paper, and tiny photo, of their child... those people's lives will never be the same again.
Then, yesterday, I saw the sweet face of Hannah, Jim and Colleen's little angel. How could I have thought there was no hope?
Hannah is hope.
Thank you to all the families who have blogs and websites, and post their referrals on them. You are a beacon of hope to the rest of the families, who were like you were... waiting. I have a spark of excitment, that one day, that will be me. Posting about one the most memorable days of my life. Offering hope to those families waiting. One day...