"Adopting a Child won't change the world; but for that Child the world will change."

Monday, 7 May 2007

Contradiction!

Ok, ok... so about 2 months ago (after the devasting 2 day referral month) I had a serious case of the blues! I went into denial... there is no adoption, no logged in dates, no waiting etc (I'm sure you get the picture).

Here we are 2 months later, and I think I've overcome my mood. I read Donna's post, and yes... I did do some quick calculations in my head. I caught myself out - "What are you doing?!" I asked myself. "Don't do that! You'll just be devasted (again!) when Christmas rolls round, and you still don't have a referral". Scary, when you actually catch yourself, having conversations in your head... with yourself!!! Although the content of my conversation wasn't all that positive, it did prove to me, that I do still hold hope. Hope that, I thought, had gone forever. Disappeared with the 2 days worth of referrals.

I know in that 2 days, though, hundreds of people, had their dreams come true. The piece of paper, and tiny photo, of their child... those people's lives will never be the same again.

Then, yesterday, I saw the sweet face of Hannah, Jim and Colleen's little angel. How could I have thought there was no hope?

Hannah is hope.

Thank you to all the families who have blogs and websites, and post their referrals on them. You are a beacon of hope to the rest of the families, who were like you were... waiting. I have a spark of excitment, that one day, that will be me. Posting about one the most memorable days of my life. Offering hope to those families waiting. One day...

16 comments:

LaLa said...

It WILL be you one day and it will all be worth it. The waiting is so hard but the rewards are so wonderful. Hang in there!

Doris & Dan said...

Hope. Positive attitude. Martini's. Blogger friends. They will all help us get thru this.

Keep smilin!

Made in China said...

This journey sure has it's ups and downs! The 2-day referral month was hard for many of us. You have to celebrate all the milestones, rejoice in fellow blogger's referrals and have a good support network of friends and family. We will all get through this!!

Sam said...

It will happen! I know. We were the last in our DTC group to get a referral. We were the last to travel. (The slowdown started with us.) We also got one of the youngest children in our DTC group and the honor of being the first to adopt from our daughter's SWI! The Denial Blues hits everyone. I wouldn't talk about our adoption for a couple of months when I got it. You just have to work through it. Hang in there!!! And as I like to say "Just Keep Swimming"! (Go watch "Finding Nemo" or read the first post on my blog to see what I mean.)

Sam
http://samcampbell.blogspot.com

Stacy said...

We will all be there. I am glad you are feeling a little better.

I find that ignorance is bliss. I TRY not to predict. :) I TRY! ;0)

rubyiscoming said...

Hope is distinctively human of us, isn't it? I keep thinking my Hope has flown the coop, too, only to have it rear its head again and again (thankfully). Yes, the beautiufl babies from referral day last week DO help :)

C.J. said...

That she is! I plopped Hannah's picture right next to my computer so I can remember that hope every moment I see a nasty prediction about the wait. Then again, it helps because I have prepared for the nastiest of wait times to be true.

It'll be worth it and that will keep us going, budette!

Lisa and Doug said...

You said it! Hannah is hope! This will happen - it may take some time - but it will happen!

cougchick said...

Hang in there!

L & J said...

I'm still hoping that after they finish up November....It will FINALLY speed up! With a 3/8 LID, I think it will be February for us. You're right, Hannah IS hope!

Melissa said...

Yes I agree, Hannah brought a lot of hope. Colleen is a dear friend of mine, and her daughter has given me such a spark!

a&mg said...

Yes, we will all get there. I like that so many of us have found hope through each other.

PromiseKeepersDaughter said...

I can hardly wait until I click on your blog and dear Bella is smiling back at me, it will happen..........and the wait would have been worth every minute.

kris said...

Hope springs eternal. It cannot be squashed. At least, not permanently!

Colleen said...

OMG - first of all thank you for mentioning us in your post. Yes...Hannah is hope. Let me tell you there were days where I thought - god I cannot make one more day...but look at this girl that is MINE (Ok ours...guess I have to share with Jim..LOL!!!) Man - does it ever get better and OH SO WORTH IT!! This love in my heart is so amazing. You can do this!

tracy said...

I hear ya sista....every little bit of this is filled with more emotions than we can write about.

Hannah is hope and she just made my month a little more happier!